It's a common baby-boomer issue

Mom is in the hospital and now she can’t go back to the assisted living facility. Dad is having a difficult time of it and is numbing himself with concern about material things like drawing up a plan for dividing the room equitably with a new roommate. He doesn’t want to let go of any of his stuff. Stuff! It’s such a burden. I have the same disease as him. I have too much stuff. Afraid to get rid of it as if it is a part of me or a protection from loss. I see and feel it as a burden. He does not. Dad, you are almost fucking 90! What do you need all this crap for? It will just be more for us to deal with when you finally leave this earth. As it is, moving Mom will be a big ordeal. So much to get rid of. What’s the point of it all? What am I afraid of? What will I miss out on by not having my calculus notes or my binder of proofs from Foundations of Math? Why do I need to keep a squeaky bird I got at a child’s birthday party 15 years ago? All this stuff just clutters up my house, my mind, my life.

I have been feeling pretty hopeless lately. I still have that damn hole in my belly and I’m gaining weight-like I need anymore. If I am this fat and I get real old it will make things really difficult. It is already making everything difficult. Which brings me to the point of what is the point of trying to take better care of myself? It’s a battle between life and death. Right now I want to die young. I don’t want to go through what Mom is going through. I feel like it is a hopeless task to lose weight. Most people can’t do it. If I can’t I might as well die soon. If I can lose it I would have by now don’t you think? Why is this such an issue? It used to be about looks and self-esteem. Now it is about health, pain, medical issues, being a burden (literally) in my old age. I haven’t got any kids to take care of me.

I told Dad, death is a part of life. He said “but I’m not ready to go yet” I asked didn’t his faith help him? and he said yes, it did. My faith tells me that whatever I don’t deal with in this life will be waiting for me to deal with in another life. But I am so tired and sore that I don’t care. I just want to veg out and move on to the next life. At least I can start out young again. Maybe I will be wiser. I have been so stupid in this life. I have not appreciated what I had and not used my gifts. Why can’t I use my gifts? And how do I use them? What am I here for?

Been watching Roswell again. It is such a comfort to me. To see Jason Behr’s characterization of Max Evans and to relive my youth. I just noticed the other day that he has Chris’s legs. Wow! Didn’t get that connection before. What if Chris was the love of my life and I just threw it all away out of fear or some madness? I don’t hold out any hope for love or romance in my life now. Not gonna happen. Fuck it.

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229 Days Till The Wedding

Dearest Supporters:

Just a quick update on my progress during this past weekend.  I’ll start by saying that Saturday was my cheat day.  Traditionally, when I used to be a gym-rat and treated my body as a temple, I ate healthy foods…six days a week.  My philosophy was and still is, that you need to reward yourself for the effort you put into your diet and exercise plan.  I know that if I deprived myself of pizza, ice cream and my favorite…chocolate, forever, that I probably wouldn’t have even bothered to start a healthy eating routine.  But just knowing that on Saturdays I could let loose and enjoy those foods worked as an incentive for me.  Now, trust me, I didn’t go hog-wild stuffing my face with as much junk as possible, though I would’ve like to, especially when it comes to pizza.  Being of Italian decent, I can’t live too long without the sauce and mozzarella cheese combo, so having a cheat day allowed me to indulge a bit!

As far as exercise is concerned, I struggled to get my big butt into the gym to do cardio on Saturday.  I dressed in my gym clothes after I showered, as a constant reminder that I needed to go, but I kept finding things around the house to occupy my time.  After spending the afternoon grocery shopping at Whole Foods, which is forty-five minutes from my house, it was too late to go to the gym.  While I was unloading the groceries, I was giving myself the guilt-trip from hell, and when I finished, I hopped into the car and drove to the park, where I walked a full ninety minutes or roughly four and a half miles.

Sunday, I went through the same struggle, but this time I never even left the house.  I spent the day in bed watching movies and reading.  I had no fight in me.  Besides, it was the last day of my vacation and I just wanted to laze around for a day before heading back to the rat-race which, concerned me.   With my work schedule being so busy and stressful, I was worried that I would soon abandon my battle.

When I woke up this morning, the only thing on my mind was how I was going to fit my workout into the day.  Luckily, one of my tutoring appointments fell through in the afternoon and I was able to start my hour commute a whole hour earlier.  My commute, as I mentioned in a previous post, is what gets me into trouble.  I always manage to talk myself out of working out by the time I reach my driveway.  Today, I changed that.  I told myself that I would get to the gym, over and over and over again.  it worked because as soon as I walked through my front door, I headed toward the closet, changed my clothes and then headed to the gym. Afterward, I felt great, ate a nice salmon dinner and am now, focused on tomorrow.  It’ll be another busy day, but I can’t give up.  I’ll keep you posted.

Sincerely,

Thy Maid of Honor

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Is Caralluma A Weight Loss Scam?

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I am 47 years of age, divorced father of two beautiful children. Until I discovered the power of caralluma, my self esteem was very low. I had just come through a messy divorce and I had found comfort in eating.

Since the divorce, I had piled on the pounds and was looking for a way to get rid of the extra weight. I tried dieting and went from one yo-yo diet to the next. Weight loss seemed like a far off dream to me. My self esteem and confidence fell lower and lower. I thought that I would carry this extra weight forever.

Sound familiar, I bet it does.

Then, my friend Ben introduced me to caralluma. He had used it to lose weight for his daughter’s upcoming wedding. He said it worked a treat.

So I scoured the net and discovered that I could try it for free at this website. I had nothing to lose. If it worked I could keep on using it, if it didn’t, It only cost me shipping and handling. That to me was a good deal.

 I had paid for diets and exercise programmes in the past, and I could get this caralluma for free from these guys.

Even this doctor was saying how the caralluma plant would help with weight loss.

Well my life turned around. It was as if a cloud had lifted from my shoulders. The results were almost instantaneous. I steadily lost pound after pound and it became obvious to me and the people around me that caralluma was working.

My self esteem and confidence increased day by day. I even had my female friends saying how attractive I had become, not only my body, but my spirit as well.

With the grey clouds lifted, my spirits soared and I was attractive to others again. That’s when I met Sally, a Fortune 500 company Executive. If I hadn’t tried caralluma I would not have had the confidence to ask her out. Now we are planning a fantastic future together.

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Easter with Sex and The City Hotspots: Fabulous "Rabbit" Giveaway

Easter weekend will be all fun and games with On Location Tours’ Sex and the City Hotspots Tour.  Earn fabulous Easter egg prizes along the way by knowing your Sex and the City trivia.  The grand prize winner will get a Rabbit from the Pleasure Chest, where Charlotte buys her rabbit on the show!  All of this while, of course, seeing the city that these four fabulous ladies call home.  You’ll stop and have cosmos at “Scout,” the bar owned by Aidan, go to the restaurant where Carrie has her wedding rehearsal dinner, and stuff your face with cupcakes just like the girls while hearing behind the scene secrets from tour guides who are real New York City actresses.  So, brush up on your Sex and the City episodes ladies, and book now before seats fill up.

When:  Saturday, April 3rd and Sunday April 4th (during 3pm departure only)

Duration: 3.5 hours

Price:  $42 (+ $2 ticket fee)

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Departure at Fifth Avenue, between 58th and 59th Streets. (Exact location provided at time of purchase)

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The Verdict's In

I stepped on the scale yesterday wrapping up a ten day limeade cleanse and the first five days of the subsequent 10 Day Biotics Cleanse.

I sort of knew something had changed when I tried on a size four dress in the juniors department at Kohl’s the other day and it actually fit!

Regardless, you could have knocked me over with a feather when I actually got on the scale. And got off of it. And then got back on.

I swear, if that scale had been in my bathroom instead of at the gym, I probably would have fallen asleep there standing upright!

For the first time in my adult life, I don’t need to lose any weight! In fact, in a completely unanticipated turn of events, I am actually substantially below my stated goal weight!

Go figure. I guess all of those old boyfriends who used to tell me that I was full of crap were actually onto something!

Anyway, goals or no, I’m curious as to what the next 15 days will bring!

Fifteen days – that is – that include 5 more days of prescribed deep liver cleansing, followed by 11 additional days of sugar detox!

Then let the maintenance begin….

Just in case you were beginning to wonder, the fun never seems to end here at Camp Living Lively!

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Sex in Las Vegas: Where Was Kim Cattrall?

from http://www.eonline.com/:

Just because Kim Cattrall wasn’t in Las Vegas last night with Sarah Jessica Parker, Kristin Davis and Cynthia Nixon does not mean she is persona non grata.

The gals jetted to Sin City for movie industry convention ShoWest, where the upcoming Sex and the City movie sequel was honored with this year’s Ensemble Award.

So why was Cattrall a no-show?

She’s busy in London starring in a West End production of Noel Coward’s play Private Lives.

“We don’t like her, so she’s gone,” Parker joked (yes, joked!) with me backstage. “We’ve actually been emailing with her for the last three or four hours. The next time you see us, we will be complete.”

Nixon added, “We miss her.”

Davis also piped in to set the record straight about one of the more recent tabloid tales of SATC catfighting. “I want to clear this up,” she said, “I promise I have never made Kim eat alone in a restaurant!”

Of course, the gals were tightlipped about the sequel’s storylines, but did share about the sometimes not-so-glamorous filming that took place in North Africa. “We happened to be staying at a hotel that had no electricity and no indoor plumbing,” Davis said. “We always had to run out to trailers to go to the bathroom.”

Parker added, “We were drinking so much mint tea, but it was a real dilemma: Do you hydrate or do you pee less?”

Perhaps they’ll have better accommodations if they make another SATC flick. While no decision has been made about a third, Nixon cracked, “We’re going to do Sex in Space.”

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